My Inspiration: Vladmir Nabokov page 2
The recently-published Stories of Vladimir Nabokov (Knopf, $35.00) contains 65 samples of Nabokovia. All of them are interesting and many of them are small masterpieces, particularly those that evoke, with an exquisite interplay of flickering shadows, objects and corporeal beings, the frailty and absurdity of love and want.From a student writer's point of view, the most fascinating story is perhaps the early "Sounds," less for its literary strength than for the pleasure of seeing, still gently breathing, the organic development of Nabokov's unique hybrid of aesthetics and feeling. Or rather, for how his sense of aesthetics and emotionality breathe through each other.
With its narrator's youthful rhapsodizing about Life, "Sounds" is about as close to the voice of a teenage Carlos Castaneda fan as Nabokov ever got (and perhaps closer than he wanted to get). But it is intelligent, finely-tuned rhapsodizing, describing an early experience of passion with a profound and glorious ambivalence. A young man enjoying a quiet love affair with a married woman suddenly realizes that "[she] alone is not my lover but the entire earth," and experiences an intense and subtly erotic understanding of his metaphysical connection with everything that lives -- all the while retaining his piquant sense of self. In such a state, even a friend's grief becomes a source of delight -- "I was radiant with his tears" -- because it is "happy as any moment or radiance is happy." Oblivious to this, his mistress tells him that she wants to run away with him. He responds with trivial talk about her cigarette case, and she realizes that he has said no. He rides off on his bike, still enrapt in his new vision, imagining that she will write to him and that he will not answer.
"Sounds" is about as close to the voice of a teenage Carlos Castaneda fan as Nabokov ever got (and perhaps closer than he wanted to get).
Superficially, this is about a blithe young man, selfishly obsessed with beauty and his own perceptions. But in a deeper way, the story is about a budding apprehension of life in all its layers, any of which can be experienced as beautiful and vital. On one hand, his desertion of the woman seems callow. But even in his detachment, he cherishes her: "It was delicious losing you. You went off, jerking angularity at the glass door. But a different you departed otherwise, opening your pale eyes under my joyous kisses." In these 
lines, the story bears the seed of a parallel universe in which the woman, realizing that the entire earth is also her lover, rises out of her sorrow to meet the narrator in his place of detached perception, if only to wave goodbye.
The frisson between a large, ecstatic vision and human-scale events, and his ability to inhabit both, characterizes all of Nabokov's work and is part of what gives it such an unusual, muscular poignancy. Far from being cold or inhuman, Nabokov's writing is suffused with a great joy that is supremely human, and that can take in all facets of being at once -- although many humans may never allow themselves to experience this. In his own words: "It is a combined sensation of having the whole universe entering you and of yourself wholly dissolving in the universe surrounding you. It is the prison wall of the ego suddenly crumbling away with the nonego rushing in from the outside to save the prisoner -- who is already dancing in the open."